So much of this process has been a game of hurry up and wait. A year’s worth of hurry to get our documents compiled, and waiting for our match. Now that we’re at the end of it, the waiting is getting so much harder to bear. We have pictures, and information about this amazing little girl. We talk about her constantly, and we ache for her to join our family. We’ve seen the image of her orphanage on google earth, so we know where she lives. At this point, because she is older, she has been told about us and is likely herself being prepared to transition from her life in an institution to life with a foreign family. So why can’t we just go and get her already????? I am no different than almost everyone else I know in that I want what I want, and I want it NOW. I’d like to think that I’m a patient person, but in reality I acknowledge that I am not. This process has certainly been a lesson in patience, but more importantly, it has been an opportunity for me and my family to cultivate our faith. When the waiting gets to be too much, it has been so helpful to tap into our feelings of gratitude. We are so thankful for this chance to give our love to another child. We are so thankful that she is healthy. We’re thankful that even though the process has been long, it has gone relatively smoothly. We’re thankful for the endless support and guidance of our adoption agency. I think we’re most thankful for the love given us by our family and close friends every step of this fantastic journey. My closest group of friends are planning showers for me in anticipation of Mia’s arrival. Their acceptance and love means the world to me, so I can chuckle along with them when they tease me about this “virtual” pregnancy. While they are only being playful, I can easily draw a parallel to my previous physical pregnancy. Only this time, I’ve traded stretch marks for a paper trail, and my “due date” is ambiguous at best. Last time, I knew that once we had reached the magic 40 weeks, something was going to happen, and we were going to have a baby. Not that a physical pregnancy is completely certain, or without inherent risks. My comfort there, lay in the relative certainty of the timeline. This process is no more or less risky or certain. The difference is the timeline.
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